What’s up people from the internet

What’s up people from the internet. I just came up with an idea. And then another one. Possibly even one after that. But that’s not what I want to talk about at this time.

As it stands, I don’t have anything to talk about at all. Not right now at least. I mean, I should’ve had a follow up meeting on the one I did a while ago but that didn’t happen because of reasons.

That’s totally fine but now I don’t have much to share for now. All I can say is, I had a few ideas. And they’re good. I know they are. Let’s hope you think the same when I share them.

Thank you for listening, people from the internet.

It’s amazing how much six years can do (I went out again)

As I mentioned only the day before yesterday, I need to get out more. I also made a promise to myself it would be just me and my camera again. Today I held myself to that promise.

Despite popular belief1, I still very much enjoy taking architecture photographs. It’s a subject I shot when I first started taking photographs about six years ago. There’s a lot of fun in taking photos that don’t require much effort to result in interesting imagery. Still, it’s something I felt I’ve grown out of a while ago, as the challenges waned and I moved on to other subjects.

But today I revisited.

All it took was hopping on a train to a place I don’t visit everyday and just walk around for a bit. I choose Amsterdam Zuid for this outing because I’ve been there before. In fact, it has been six years since I’ve been there to take photos on my own.

Am I coming full circle?

In any case, I could now try and see it with fresh eyes though. I felt a little lost and self-conscious when I first got off the train but I quickly found my stride again. Before I knew it I was snapping away, finding new angles and interesting perspectives.

The end result is basically just a series of simple look-ups2 but that’s perfect. It’s something I feel familiar with but at the same time challenges me enough to try and approach it differently from when I did it six years ago.

Here’s one of my favourites from the afternoon.

  1. Just kidding, there is no popular belief ↩︎

  2. You know, photos where you look up ↩︎

Three things each day

I’ve been feeling a little anxious lately so to combat that, I only allow myself to do up to three things each day. I’m not counting simple stuff like making dinner and going to the bathroom, of course. Think about bigger things like working on projects, cleaning the bathroom, writing a newsletter.

So what did I do today? Oh you know…

  • Converted my most recent newsletter into a twitter thread (which was a surprising amount of work).
  • Did a workout in the gym I built at work using this app.
  • Watched an online seminar from 2015 on YouTube on how to make Blurb Trade Books.
  • Worked on the design of my photo project and came up with some fun distribution ideas.

One thing too many. Ah well, tomorrow I’ll do up to two things then.

I need to get out more, damn it

It has been quite a while ago since I realized I need to get out to get inspired.

I can’t sit around the house dreaming up photo projects. I can’t expect to feel better about myself and my craft without doing anything substantial. I can’t pretend to work on so called completed projects, when I could be out there making more work. Better work.

Maybe I should plan trips beforehand and don’t expect my tired body to feel excited to go somewhere spontaneous. Maybe I can just pick a place and an afternoon and just go out for once. Maybe I’ll create something good for once. Maybe I’ll feel good about myself again.

That’s it. It’s just me and my camera from now on. Hopefully I can forget about all that other nonsense that’s not taking anywhere.

End of rant.

I quit. But only to continue.

Check this. You know how I made those circles for The Silence Around, right? Do you also know I had the honour of displaying those for over 5 months in the local library? That’s quite a long time!

The original plan was to leave them there until December 31st 2020 and then move them to a new location. And a new location after that. Covid 19 changed that swiftly, resulting in the installations still being in their second location as I’m writing this 1.

Well, in hindsight I’m glad the installations were safely stored within the confines of the prestigious building that is our library during these lockdowns. It bought me some time to figure out what to do with them next. Nevertheless, it’s a shame the installations won’t get to see many other locations too. Sort of.

As local restrictions are still very much in place, conquering a spot within other cultural facilities is no easy feat. All of them have backlogs of work they want to expose and regular confidants they work with to accomplish this. Me, as a new guy, does not fit into their schedules immediately. Though I’m entirely making this up myself right now. That’s not the end of it though.

You see, a while ago2 I was totally fine keeping the installations for a while until I could find further use for them. I had it all figured out. I arranged a storage facility, transport and somebody to help move the units (thanks dad). It would take some effort, and quite a bit of cash, but I would take on the challenge. I was absolutely ready to move The Silence Around for safekeeping until they could be displayed somewhere again. Or perhaps use the installations themselves for another purpose.

Until the transportation fell through.

It was a minor setback, I admit, but the last one I needed. To be perfectly honest, I love how the units look (just peek at the photos on the project page) and I’m sure they would’ve come in handy sometime in the future again.

It’s just that they are too damn big to conveniently move around.

The idea for the shape and size are entirely my own (with a little consulting here and there, sure) and they served their purpose very well. They’re quite impressive to look at and stepping inside really provides you with the immersive experience I was hoping for. Everything was perfect.

Until I tried to move them.

They will not fit, in any way, through a regular door. You need at least double doors, or garage doors, or something that’s wider than a meter to move them in and out of buildings. This turned out to be a major inconvenience as I now had no way to store these units myself. I needed a third party involved just to keep them around. I hate needing third parties. My god, I so badly want to be able to do everything myself. I hate being dependent on other people, facilities, companies. It’s always so much more effort to get something done if you can’t just do it yourself.

I just couldn’t do it anymore. If I was being honest with myself, these installations have been a headache ever since I realised I couldn’t handle them myself. When I heard the transportation I had in mind wasn’t an option anymore, I gave up. I called the people who helped me built the installations and asked if they liked the raw material back (it’s good quality steel so why throw that out?). Thankfully they accepted.

So I quit working on The Silence Around. But only to continue working other projects. I’m currently in the process of laying out my B&W Squares project, which is a good exercise in bookmaking, and I plan to work on more print products in the future. I’m sure I’ll build another installation someday in the future, but only one that folds down to fit in my home or when I’m more prepared in general.

Lesson learned, it was awesome, onto the next one.

  1. The first being the exposition weekend of Blauwdruk 033. ↩︎

  2. Read: this morning ↩︎

Progress doesn’t come easy but it comes

Look at that. Progress.

It was an uphill struggle today but I managed to squeeze some time out of the day to work on my B&W Squares project. Of which I have come up with a title by the way. That I’m not ready to share.

But anyway.

Behold this first outlay of the page design, which is probably subject to quite a bit of change. I’ve strayed off my initial planning significantly but that no longer matters. Taking my time to go through the whole process is more valuable to me now.

The groundwork is there.