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Mondays are for working. Office working. Not the most inspirational of tasks, but definitely a necessary one. Also not one I dislike. Not at all. But definitely one that makes me tired. So Mondays also the days where I feel mentally drained and motivated to work at the same time. Anxiously trying to get something done for myself is usually done in vain. It's better to simply sit back, unwind and get back at it again tomorrow. Which is exactly my plan for the next few hours until it's bed time.

The effects of yesterday’s walk are strongly present in my legs. Therefore it won’t come as a surprise that I haven’t walked much today. There are only so many steps you can take indoors anyway. Totally fine, because now I’m sure there will be many more days of walking to come.

I admit, I felt like a mad man when I looked out the window this morning. At the same time, I haven't let that stop me before — why would today be the first time? Sure, there was water pouring out of the sky, perhaps intermingled with the tiniest hints of snow (and I'm not exaggerating to prove a point). Despite that, I still went out. Of course I went out! All the way up north to a place they call Bunschoten-Spakenburg. Situated on the water's edge of het Nijkerkernauw, Bunschoten-Spakenburg i

Presenting facts to a fool will not change a fool’s mind because a fool is not interested in the truth, a fool is only interested in finding something, anything, to believe in.

It’s 3 am and I keep tossing and turning. Can’t seem to fall into a deep sleep. Vivid dreams flashing through my head. Shards of experiences I have had through the day on repeat. I can’t figure out why. And then it hits me. I forgot to hit send on my Monologue yesterday. Well, I guess this still counts as I will now try to continue my dreams. It might be past midnight but only now is my day fully completed. Hopefully my dreams will calm down now that I’ve completed my tasks.

It is very necessary. Especially after the way I have been pumping myself up all morning. Will I take a bus all the way up to Spakenburg and then walk back home — essentially completing the northern half of the Grebbeline? Nah, that's an almost 25km walk. Too much for a quick afternoon stroll so I should save that for when I have a full day. Perhaps I then take a bus down to Scherpenzeel and walk another section of the southern half of the Grebbeline. Though that would require me to be at the

The way this cat is laying down all relaxed right now, I wish I was a cat. But I think most of us has had that wish before, haven’t we? It’s one of the most universal wishes I’ve heard in my almost 30 years wandering around on this planet. This guy just walks up to any place, at any time of the day, and lays down in an immediate state of ultimate relaxation. I can’t understand how he does it. And if you move him? Doesn’t matter. He just repositions and is comfortable again within no time. I wis

To be honest, I'm already working my way towards closing the year. It's strange, because 2021 has passed by so quickly, I can hardly believe it's already the end of November. At the same time, I'm not unhappy the year is almost over. A small reason for that is that I am ready to focus on other things than these Monologues. There is no other reason. Ha! I'm already subconsciously going over the lessons I've learned this year. Trying to figure out what these Monologues have brought me. I can thin

The Weeknd - The Morning, on repeat in my head. Though, despite the hedonistic theme of the song, my Sunday consisted of day time naps and afternoon drinks and bites. What else could I have asked for?

Winter is not officially here but its spirits are certainly felt already. The changes in light immediately draw me back to black and white photos. I feel like it can be a waste to loose the extra layer of information color can hold during summer, so I can’t bring myself to black and white photography as much at those times. In winter though, the whole world looses its color for the most part and a colorless shot can underline that reality so well. When even the trees decide to present themselve

A mere 4800 steps today. Far less than past week’s average. It’s fine. Let me get some rest tonight and I’ll try my best to make it up tomorrow. Sleep well. Sleep tight.

Hello kids and people older than that. I’m happy to report I have not walked strenuous amounts today. My legs are already very noticeably displaying their presence by presenting me with a constant feeling of soreness. Not the type that inhibits you from walking but certainly enough to remind me of the almost 30km I’ve walked the past few days. Good to know the walking is doing something. I also didn’t sit down behind the computer all day instead. Which is my default behaviour when I’m not outs

Don’t you think it’s poetic that the wrapper or the roll of bin bags is the first item to be discarded? Reduced to the contents of the object is was so carefully protecting from unraveling. Maybe that’s just me. In other news, I walked 11KM again today and my feet are really starting to hurt. You will not find me walking this distance again tomorrow. Maybe I’ll cycle. Maybe I will just read a book for once. I guess we’ll find out tomorrow.

Okay I gotta be honest, it's always either all or nothing with me. Just two days ago I shared my plan of doing one week of boring computer stuff and than the other week of going out and experiencing stuff. Well, today I did went out again (as promised) but I immediately ended up walking a solid 11,5 KM, like that's a normal thing to do. I mean, sure it's good to be out there but am I not overdoing it right away? I just might be. Though we'll know for sure when I wake up with a crippling pain in

As promised, I would be back to report on my week of doing stuff. So here I am: reporting. Sadly, the Mondays are set aside for a full day of office work (I still have a job) so it was well past daylight when I had the first moment to myself. Luckily, the weather is kind enough to us on this November 15th, so I made sure I was warmly dressed and, after a quick bite, headed out again. I wasn't entirely sure what my plan was when I set foot outside so for a moment I dwelled around the vicinity of

New plan! I have a new plan! I’m not sure I will actually pull through but I like the idea so here it goes. How about… how shall I say this… splitting my time into two parts for a while. One part where I focus on doing computer stuff and one part where I focus on going out and making real life stuff. I have so much trouble planning my time properly to allow for outside adventures. It’s not uncommon that I end up finding something to do on the computer and just default to that instead. Such a wa

Who can you bet on if not yourself? That’s the main thought going through my mind the past few months. I have yet to find a reason to believe this growing feeling is unjustified. If anything, this seems to become an increasingly better strategy to move forward.

I’m feeling fine. I’m functioning fine. Everything is just fine. But if I look real close and I mean real close at what I’m truly feeling, than it’s currently: Tired Angry (sometimes confused with sadness) Excited Satisfied