Writing

Just two more weeks to go man. I can barely believe it. While organizing my work, I was reading through all my daily entries up until now. Some of these things I would’ve never remembered if it wasn’t for this project. That’s both a positive and a negative at the same time but most of all, it’s an honest thing. Because while some of my thoughts and rants might have been delusional, misguided or a little jaded, they always were honest in that particular moment. That makes things worth it to remem

It’s 4 in the morning and I’m tired. Yawning constantly with burning eyes that want to be closed but also unable to sleep. I tried simply laying there with my eyes closed — idling to the point where my body would have no choice but to sleep. My mind was not giving into that trick though and kept coming up with new thoughts. I realized I might still have to process the events from the past days. Not that anything particularly special has happened, I just sense that the processing you do in your d

The story I wrote for today ended up in my drafts because it requires some more thought so this sentence will have to make due for today.

I stayed in, did naps all day and I don’t even feel bad about it.

Quick vibe check: how many of the goals I've set for this year have I accomplished? Let's bring up the list and results: Goal 1: Mailing list 500 subscribers Accomplished?: Not even close. I'm a little over 20 subscribers right now. Goal 2: Print on Demand sales 1000 euros per month. Accomplished?: No. I don't know what I was thinking when I wrote that. I guess I was trying to set some sort of horizon goal to aim for without the actual intention of reaching it. I've made a total of 70 euros

I don't have the time nor energy to do it today but I plan to look at my goals of 2021 tomorrow and see how much of it has come true. My expectation is, not much but there will be stuff to ponder about because of it. Should be interesting.

I saw a photo of a very peculiar looking man today, which caught my eye immediately. The photo is taken by Valentina Vos. Then I noticed the photo belonged to an article in the paper. The first paragraph of the article was included and somehow I started reading it. That interested me so much that I googled for the article to see if I could find it online so I could continue reading it. I found it rather quickly. At the end of the article, I learned that this interview, because that is what it w

I’m not sure if I’m too tired to care or too busy doing other stuff to pretend I do. This project is coming to an end soon and I’m already working on aggregating all my daily entries and restructuring them properly. This whole thing got a little messy during the past year and I think it deserves to be archived in an organized fashion. I’m not sure if I will keep all the entries from past year as separate blog posts on my website. Maybe I should, for posterity, but perhaps most entries only make

Am I not, a god on the camera? I seriously thought about leaving at that for today's entry but here I am typing this second sentence so anyway, let's continue. Just to be clear, I don't have any specific thoughts about the statement above. I just like the idea that it can be either a statement or a question, depending on how you choose to read it. Some people will take offense saying 'how can you claim something like that? Who do you think you are?'. Others will see it as a sign of doubt, weakn

Reorganized my home office, again. This time though, I sort of got it to a point where I can also do some work while standing up. Admittely, it does involve placing my keyboard on a little stand that makes the whole thing kind of awkward but you will hear no complains from me. At least I have the option now. Using the mouse requires me to bend over, not very ergonomic, but we'll find out soon how well I know my keyboard shortcuts. I also should not look behind me. Some stuff could not find a pl

You can not go on a protest to call for unity. Your protest is inherently pushing for the opposite. But what do I know? We are in the early stages of The Great Divide and there's not much we can do about it. We all like to engage in futile battles to extract some identity from. Just so we can have a sense of belonging and purpose. I rather just stick to my long walks and shooting my photos. If nobody cares to stop and smell the flowers anymore, then I will do nothing but exactly that.

December 4th. Jay-Z's birthday. I don't know why I know that but I just do. For some reason I think about it every years since gaining that knowledge. I do the same with other random birthdays as well. For example, there's this guy that I went to high school with that I got along with pretty well. We no longer speak since leaving high school, though we're still friendly when we run into each other somewhere. I still know his birthday is January 16th. I don't need to remember that, it's not like

The wind was blowing so hard, drops from the water reached all the way up to the few uncovered parts of my face. Though it might’ve been a light rain as well. It’s December in the Netherlands alright and I cursed myself for not wearing any gloves. Instead, my hands were firmly tucked away in the deep pockets of my puffer jacket. My camera slung across my body, hiding in the safe space between my right arm and my torso. You can call me many things but at least one of them has to be a promise-kee

Finishing the image licensing page. For now. Looking at the changing colours in the sky. Further tagging and categorising the photos in my online archive. Staring in the distance and thinking about nothing. Feeling the need to pee but ignoring it for just a little longer. Drafting up some cover ideas for the Monologue book. Looking at potential costs and possible dimensions for the book on the Blurb website. Realising this is going to be a hella expensive book. Still worth it though. That's a ye

I’ve been planning to setup a proper structure to license my images to companies, brands and anybody else who cares. Today I came up with a first version of the information page, while also enhancing the navigation of my archive website. I thought it’d be fun to share the text of the info page here as well for future reference. I assume things will change (hopefully for the better) a lot and it’s always good to look back and see where you came from. So here it goes: Need images for your websit

Rainy day. Sad, rainy day. One of those days that serve as a reminder you are living on the top half of the globe, where daylight sometimes has no power. A day on which, despite my best efforts, not even I was crazy enough to go our for a walk. No outdoor activities for me today. Instead, it's way easier and more comfortable to lose yourself in all the different media and technologies we have. Though be careful not to look too long at any of the news platforms. It seems like there is no positiv

Mondays are for working. Office working. Not the most inspirational of tasks, but definitely a necessary one. Also not one I dislike. Not at all. But definitely one that makes me tired. So Mondays also the days where I feel mentally drained and motivated to work at the same time. Anxiously trying to get something done for myself is usually done in vain. It's better to simply sit back, unwind and get back at it again tomorrow. Which is exactly my plan for the next few hours until it's bed time.

The effects of yesterday’s walk are strongly present in my legs. Therefore it won’t come as a surprise that I haven’t walked much today. There are only so many steps you can take indoors anyway. Totally fine, because now I’m sure there will be many more days of walking to come.