Monologue

In addition to my list of goals for next year, here’s also a list of things I don’t want to do. My anti-goals, if you will. I'll keep it (way) short(er) than I did yesterday, as I don't feel the need to go into detail for every single point. I also suspect the list being much longer. Here it goes, off the top. I don't want to: * do client work * spend most of my time behind a computer * participate in meaningless discussions * be near meaningless discussions * doubt myself as much * loo

A few days ago [https://mitchellens.ink/quick-vibe-check/], I looked back on how many of my goals for 2021 I ended up reaching. The unsurprising answer was, not many of them. I say it was unsurprising because, as the year progressed, I slowly realized that many of the goals I had set for myself were not the things I should be focusing on. Or, stated more plainly, I set the wrong goals for myself. Let’s dive in. Why did I set the wrong goals An important realization was that most of my goals for

After four days straight of Christmas celebrations, watching a 6 hour GTA V speed run was exactly the type of passive entertainment I needed. Now it’s 10PM and I’m ripe for bed.

Just to be clear: I am working on one final piece about my goals for next year, as well as a final round up of what I’ve learned from a year of daily writing. I’ll try to aggregate some stats on the final word count and such as well. Though it’s probably better to share those numbers after the project has finished. For now though, I’m sort of void of deeper thoughts as I’m cruising towards the new year. Nevertheless, see you tomorrow!

The second day of Christmas is the perfect moment to create a blend of watching silly YouTube videos, Bridget Jones’ Baby (don’t tell anybody but I really like that movie) and eating home cooked Indonesian food with the fam. Then watching Bohemian Rhapsody. Then typing this story while my eyes are slowly starting to close. Time for bed.

Merry Christmas to myself. But also to some other people. You know who you are.

It’s the day before Christmas, or the day of Christmas Eve if you will, and I needn’t have bothered to show up to work today. I’m a little too tired to do any (work, that is) and a little too focussed on doing nothing at all for a few days. So if you don’t mind, you can find me in bed with a book and otherwise at some Christmas gathering with the fam. Happy holidays.

YES! Not much to share today except for ONTLUIKING.NL being LIVE! It’s a work in progress, it always will be, but de Ontluiking has its own place on the web now. As a side note, that also means that my personal website has now officially moved from Wordpress to Ghost as well! Thanks Wordpress, you have been lovely, but Ghost is the future. That means less tinkering with how things should look (it’s not as flexible as Wordpress, which is good!) and more focus on words and images. Anyway, go rea

I'm nervous. The end of the year is near. That means I feel like I'm running out of time again. As if I have to get everything done before the year comes to an end. It's a fool's thought — after the last day of this year there will simply be a first day of the next year. It's all semantics. A day is a day and another one will always come. Until it doesn't, of course, but in that event none of this will matter much anyway. Some updates: the redesign of Ontluiking.nl is taking shape nicely. We're

It’s December 21, 2021 and that are only ten more days left in this project. Can you believe I’ve done 355 days of consecutive writing already? I certainly have a hard time believing that to be true. On the one hand, I feel like I should end the year with some grand elaborate essay about the things I’ve learned and the direction I plan to take in the future. At least that’s what I envisioned at the start of the project what I would do about now. I don’t feel like doing that though. I dunno, it’

For a long time, I’ve wanted to watch The Equalizer. Not the 1980 or 2021 TV series, but the 2014 film starring Denzel Washington. There’s no particular reason I wanted to watch this movie, other than Denzel being the lead character. I always like Denzel Washington movies. But somehow I never bothered to actually watch the movie. That has changed now and I am really happy I did. This is exactly my type of movie. So if you don’t mind, I’ll be watching The Equalizer 2, from 2018, in immediate suc

If knowledge is power and ignorance is bliss, is being powerless then also blissful? Because it appears power and blissfulness are mutually exclusive. But does that then also mean that the knowledgable, by way of having power, are inherently miserable? Maybe I'm missing something here.

I bought the .com domain for my ‘firstnamelastname’ today and I can’t believe it was still free as well as I can't believe that I haven’t done this before. It feels good to be the only Mitchel Lensink in the world that now has access to that domain. It does feel a little wasteful to simply redirect it to my mitchellens.ink domain but I really like that domain name and there is no way I'm switching. The potential SEO juices aren't that important for me anyway. So anyway, that was today.

Yes! That 10KM walk was just what I needed. Sitting down feels deserved again and I can do it without feeling restless. Perfect. Now don’t get me wrong, the walk itself was boring, bland and felt a little redundant. All I came across was ugly industrial sights and most of the walking itself was done on cycling paths. Not ideal. But ah well, these redundant walks need to be done as well so that the fun ones are appreciated more. You know how that works, it’s a balancing act.

I put a new strap on my camera and now I want to pick it up and use it even more than before. Sometimes I laugh at my own one-dimensionality. So to honor that rekindled love, I need to take my camera out again. Tomorrow afternoon is a good moment for another walk. Which means that tomorrow morning, I’ll bring up the map, pick a direction and then when noon hits, i just start walking. Yes, of course, things can be that simple.

Just two more weeks to go man. I can barely believe it. While organizing my work, I was reading through all my daily entries up until now. Some of these things I would’ve never remembered if it wasn’t for this project. That’s both a positive and a negative at the same time but most of all, it’s an honest thing. Because while some of my thoughts and rants might have been delusional, misguided or a little jaded, they always were honest in that particular moment. That makes things worth it to remem

It’s 4 in the morning and I’m tired. Yawning constantly with burning eyes that want to be closed but also unable to sleep. I tried simply laying there with my eyes closed — idling to the point where my body would have no choice but to sleep. My mind was not giving into that trick though and kept coming up with new thoughts. I realized I might still have to process the events from the past days. Not that anything particularly special has happened, I just sense that the processing you do in your d

The story I wrote for today ended up in my drafts because it requires some more thought so this sentence will have to make due for today.